October 2, 2018
So much for me saying I was done with reflective posts. I did say I reserved the right to go back on that statement.
For the past 38 days I have either been in bed or (mostly) sitting in a wheelchair. To say my backside is sore and tired is an understatement. To be honest, there’s not a whole lot to look forward to when I get out of bed in the morning (which is physically a challenge). I’m trying to keep myself alert and busy, but in many ways, I’m tired and frustrated. Of course, there’s always movies, music, and reading. I’ve started some mornings with worship, and that has helped to put my heart and mind in focus, but I find myself wanting to go outside, go to work, or better yet spend the day at Disneyland. My highlight today was getting my hair cut and then practicing walking at our local grocery store (doesn’t that sound exciting?)
For those of you who know me very well know that I don’t stay still long. It’s not unusual for me to meet my step goal while at the office. I’m sure they’re getting a lot more done without my constant interruptions (which I was working on reducing before the stroke). I’m excited to spend a couple of days next week at our staff retreat. It will be fun to get together and talk ministry along with goals and dreams. I have spent a part of my time thinking of new ways to reach our community. I just finished a book by Andy Stanley entitled ‘Irresistible’ that caused me to rethink how I talk about Jesus. I’m also reading a book by Francis Chan entitled ‘Letters to the Church’ that is also challenging some of my presuppositions about how we do church in the 21st-century.
In reading over these last two paragraphs I am left with a question. Am I bored silly or am I keeping my mind engaged? It is definitely a combination of the two. I wake up not looking forward the day and then find some little joy that brings a smile to my face. Today my physical therapist, Collin was extremely encouraging, almost like a coach. It’s weird to get excited about walking the length of my patio but both Collin and Judy cheered me on. I’m just not a great sick person. I’m much too impatient and hate having to have people do things for me. The hero through all of this is been Judy. Once again God’s providence has been definitely on display. The end of timing of her time at Vanguard has given her the ability to care for me. I didn’t realize I was a full-time job.
Tomorrow is a new day and I’m going to be on lookout for God sightings throughout. I’ve seen God working in this entire situation and I doubt he’s going to stop now.